So I'm tired of being alone. I'm in love with the best woman in the world and ill never have her, I work 45hr a week and have no friends, my truck crapped out on me and I'm driving my brothers.

I know i don't have a lot to offer but I'm so very lonely, i have no one to talk to, no one to hold me when I'm sad, no one to joke with and laugh at my corny jokes when I'm happy. I miss having someone in my life so very much. I know I'm not a huge catch but one thing i am is honest, I will never cheat, and I will keep nothing from my love.

I'm struck with a dilemma in that I'm taking my meds to keep me from being depressed but at the same time Ive lost my feelings, i am no longer depressed but i am also not able to be happy, I laugh at jokes but in my heart I'm crying all day every day. I relies that I am utterly alone in this life and it kills me inside. I dare not stop taking my meds because of the pain it causes my family but in keeping myself from hurting them i am killing the spark of life within myself. I no longer write my stories, poems, or even just a journal. I fear that if i do not find someone to fill the void in my heart that i will crash into the depths of self hatred again and that i will end up hurting not only my self but my family as well...

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm so lonely that it makes my heart ache.

So i got my razzle yesterday late and it is AWSOME! I love this phone it has a huge screen and the twist keybord is so so cool. Any way other than my new phone everything else around here is the same. any one intersted in a guy that likes dogs and being outside?? no? oh well...

Well i just this minuet upgraded to a VZW Razzle. Its neat the qwerty key bored flips backwords and has speakers on the back, i hope it workes good because im tired of having to send back for a new phone after only a week any way I'm just chilling, working alot and trying to pay the bills.

Well I'm just sitting around waiting for money to appear, my poor truck broke down and i need close to $1500 to get a new motor.
that's the bad news the good news is work has been picking up a little and Ive already made bills for next month so YAY NO BILLS!
Other than that my sister had her baby a little girl named Grace, 9lbs, 21in. and she is a cutie.

Hey ya'll hope everyone is still doing good. Ive been So busy getting life in order that i havent been online in like forever. But everything seems to be calming down enof to almost be normal... almost.
So any way how you guys been i want to here from every one how there art is going, how live has been , and if any one has found love